This one is less beautiful than my previous dreams, but instead it's kind of funny.
The back story is that my dad and his dad have a full head of hair. my dad's brother is bald bald bald, like his mother's father (my great grandpa) who coincidentally, shares a birthday with me.
the dream:
I am sitting in my grandparent's porch with my dad, grandpa, uncle, and another uncle who i don't have in real life. i had just gotten home from school or something and was trying to make small talk when my uncle made a crack about my dad's hair. i looked and he had a noticeable bald patch on the back of his head. i looked at my grandpa to see if he had started balding too, but he still had a full head of white hair. my dad looked really disappointed and sad that this was happening to him, even though both of his brothers are complete cue balls. i wanted to go home, but then grandma came in with M&M's so i stayed a bit longer.
Monday, July 23, 2007
Sunday, July 22, 2007
bored.
69 truths.
1. single or taken? we haven't really talked about it yet. except we have. i feel good about this one.
2. zodiac sign? Scorpio and lovin' it.
4. male or female? female
6. elementary ? St. Ambrose School
7. middle ? Shenandoah Middle School
8. high ? Shenandoah High School/The Indiana Academy for Science, Mathematics, and Humanities
9. eye color ? grass and dirt.
10. hair color ? brown.
15. are you health freak ? no. i eat cookie dough out of a tub.
16. height ? 5' 5"
17. do you love someone ? i love all of my friends to some degree.
18. do you like yourself ? yep.
19. piercings you've had ? ears
21. righty or lefty ? lefty
FIRSTS
23. first piercing ? ears
26. first sport ? soccer? swimming?
27. first pet ? Angus, my chow mix dog.
28. first vacation ? eh? probably first real one was florida for my grandparent's 50th anniversary
29. first concert ? no idea. first cool one was dashboard/SoCo in columbus.
CURRENTLY :
31. eating ? skittles.
32. drinking ? water
33. listening to ? michael kelsey
YOUR FUTURE:
36. want kids? ? definitely.
37. want to get married? ? if it feels right, but it's not imperative to me.
38. want a big house? as long as it can still have a cozy feel.
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE PREFERRED SEX? :
39. lips or eyes? ? both?
40. looks or personality? both again.
41. athletic or lazy? ? at least willing to play sports for fun and be in decent shape.
42. intelligence or attraction? ? i'm attracted to intelligence.
43. romantic or spontaneous? ? spontaneity is romantic.
44. nice stomach or nice arms? ? this only applies to guys really, so why does it say 'preferred sex' above?
46. hook-up or relationship? ? both have their place, but they are not to be confused
47. body or mind? ? mind
HAVE YOU EVER :
49. kissed a stranger ? yes
50. lost glasses/contacts ? i just lost a contact in lake shafer when i got pushed in.
51. ran away from home ? no
52. broken any bones ? right index finger had a tiny tiny fracture once. it doesn't really count.
54. broken someone's heart ? not too seriously, i hope.
55. been arrested ? been close more times than i like to admit to.
57. cried when someone died ? i don't think so.
58. liked a friend ? i like all my friends...i even said above that i love them!
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
59. yourself ? yes
60. miracles ? yes
61. love at first sight ? not really.
62. Santa Claus ? i don't even think it's a good idea for little kids to believe in santa.
63. sex on the first date ? no, it ruins things.
64. kiss on the first date - if it feels right.
65. angels ? not really in a traditional sense
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
66. Is there one person you want to be with right now? ? i can think of several people that i want to be with, but none of them are here.
67. Have you really liked someone that you shouldn't have? ? what? i'll like whoever i want to like!
68. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? ? no
69. Do you believe in God? ? i believe in the soul of the world and fate
1. single or taken? we haven't really talked about it yet. except we have. i feel good about this one.
2. zodiac sign? Scorpio and lovin' it.
4. male or female? female
6. elementary ? St. Ambrose School
7. middle ? Shenandoah Middle School
8. high ? Shenandoah High School/The Indiana Academy for Science, Mathematics, and Humanities
9. eye color ? grass and dirt.
10. hair color ? brown.
15. are you health freak ? no. i eat cookie dough out of a tub.
16. height ? 5' 5"
17. do you love someone ? i love all of my friends to some degree.
18. do you like yourself ? yep.
19. piercings you've had ? ears
21. righty or lefty ? lefty
FIRSTS
23. first piercing ? ears
26. first sport ? soccer? swimming?
27. first pet ? Angus, my chow mix dog.
28. first vacation ? eh? probably first real one was florida for my grandparent's 50th anniversary
29. first concert ? no idea. first cool one was dashboard/SoCo in columbus.
CURRENTLY :
31. eating ? skittles.
32. drinking ? water
33. listening to ? michael kelsey
YOUR FUTURE:
36. want kids? ? definitely.
37. want to get married? ? if it feels right, but it's not imperative to me.
38. want a big house? as long as it can still have a cozy feel.
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE PREFERRED SEX? :
39. lips or eyes? ? both?
40. looks or personality? both again.
41. athletic or lazy? ? at least willing to play sports for fun and be in decent shape.
42. intelligence or attraction? ? i'm attracted to intelligence.
43. romantic or spontaneous? ? spontaneity is romantic.
44. nice stomach or nice arms? ? this only applies to guys really, so why does it say 'preferred sex' above?
46. hook-up or relationship? ? both have their place, but they are not to be confused
47. body or mind? ? mind
HAVE YOU EVER :
49. kissed a stranger ? yes
50. lost glasses/contacts ? i just lost a contact in lake shafer when i got pushed in.
51. ran away from home ? no
52. broken any bones ? right index finger had a tiny tiny fracture once. it doesn't really count.
54. broken someone's heart ? not too seriously, i hope.
55. been arrested ? been close more times than i like to admit to.
57. cried when someone died ? i don't think so.
58. liked a friend ? i like all my friends...i even said above that i love them!
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
59. yourself ? yes
60. miracles ? yes
61. love at first sight ? not really.
62. Santa Claus ? i don't even think it's a good idea for little kids to believe in santa.
63. sex on the first date ? no, it ruins things.
64. kiss on the first date - if it feels right.
65. angels ? not really in a traditional sense
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
66. Is there one person you want to be with right now? ? i can think of several people that i want to be with, but none of them are here.
67. Have you really liked someone that you shouldn't have? ? what? i'll like whoever i want to like!
68. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? ? no
69. Do you believe in God? ? i believe in the soul of the world and fate
Friday, July 20, 2007
i've been thinking more and more about this, ever since someone asked me...
and I have a lot of pet peeves. In fact, the phrase 'pet peeve' is one of them.
In other words, here are things that annoy me.
-passive aggressiveness.
-people who have no public speaking skills at all. I know this isn't necessarily their fault, but sheesh they could at least speak clearly.
-dumb girls who think they are the shit.
-above mentioned girls that sing fall out boy songs like they've been singing them for 3 or 4 years but they haven't.
-girls who won't drink their own beer in beer pong. (i'm beginning to sense a trend)
-Peeps. No you can't call them my "pet peep".
-people who drink heineken.
-adults talking down to me like i'm any other delinquent. (I'm a smart delinquent dammit!)
-being intentionally avoided without knowing why. just tell me already.
-anyone who thinks squirrels are cuter than chipmunks.
-literary symbolism. I'm just reading for fun.
-dumb assignments for english class. or any class for that matter.
and I have a lot of pet peeves. In fact, the phrase 'pet peeve' is one of them.
In other words, here are things that annoy me.
-passive aggressiveness.
-people who have no public speaking skills at all. I know this isn't necessarily their fault, but sheesh they could at least speak clearly.
-dumb girls who think they are the shit.
-above mentioned girls that sing fall out boy songs like they've been singing them for 3 or 4 years but they haven't.
-girls who won't drink their own beer in beer pong. (i'm beginning to sense a trend)
-Peeps. No you can't call them my "pet peep".
-people who drink heineken.
-adults talking down to me like i'm any other delinquent. (I'm a smart delinquent dammit!)
-being intentionally avoided without knowing why. just tell me already.
-anyone who thinks squirrels are cuter than chipmunks.
-literary symbolism. I'm just reading for fun.
-dumb assignments for english class. or any class for that matter.
Monday, July 16, 2007
hey, slow down, hollywood
Oh anti-matter raisins and curry spiced poppadoms! what a long night. Playing killer bunnies is pretty much the most extreme thing ever for a rousing sunday night. I almost won, but instead I handed the girl who did win the winning carrot. I also decided that if we just audio recorded the entire thing, it would probably be the most riduculous thing ever and no one would have known what we were doing.
"Shiiit, I just suffered a terrible misfortune!"
"I'll trade you my halo for your hologram."
"But how DO you kill a cyber bunny?"
"I'll trade you two carrots for 3 cabbage and water."
"It's ok, I'll just use my anti-matter raisins or ebola virus against her next round."
"That bunny can drive a Delorian?!"
See what I mean?
I mean, you'd get the idea it was bunny-related. But it'd still be pretty ridiculous. It lasted at least 3 hours.
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A few more thoughts of the afternoon:
-Also, for the first time in 13 years, I'm not at the 4-H fair in Henry County. Extreme, I know. I strangely miss the smell of pigs.
-Cookie dough should be sold in tubes, like toothpaste. Except with a bigger hole to accomodate the chocolate chips.
-I saw the same girl three times today. Once when I was walking to English, she and I crossed the street at the same time, although she was riding a bike. Then again as I was walking to work, she was sitting on the fountain quad reading. And as I walked home, she rode past me behind Heavilon immediately after I swore I saw some construction guy taking a leak right in the middle of campus. (It turned out he was just standing with his hands deep inside his pockets while he was talking to someone else.) A little weird.
-A girl in my calc class is the spotlight student in the exponent. That the third person this summer, and ever, for that matter, that I've known to be in it. (side note: Also, she revealed that she "hates Harry Potter" in the interview. I thought I liked her before. But I guess I was wrong.)
-I want to go flying again. I wake up and see Janel's picture every morning and I love it and wish I could do it this summer too. If I could only figure out how to win the lottery...
"Shiiit, I just suffered a terrible misfortune!"
"I'll trade you my halo for your hologram."
"But how DO you kill a cyber bunny?"
"I'll trade you two carrots for 3 cabbage and water."
"It's ok, I'll just use my anti-matter raisins or ebola virus against her next round."
"That bunny can drive a Delorian?!"
See what I mean?
I mean, you'd get the idea it was bunny-related. But it'd still be pretty ridiculous. It lasted at least 3 hours.
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A few more thoughts of the afternoon:
-Also, for the first time in 13 years, I'm not at the 4-H fair in Henry County. Extreme, I know. I strangely miss the smell of pigs.
-Cookie dough should be sold in tubes, like toothpaste. Except with a bigger hole to accomodate the chocolate chips.
-I saw the same girl three times today. Once when I was walking to English, she and I crossed the street at the same time, although she was riding a bike. Then again as I was walking to work, she was sitting on the fountain quad reading. And as I walked home, she rode past me behind Heavilon immediately after I swore I saw some construction guy taking a leak right in the middle of campus. (It turned out he was just standing with his hands deep inside his pockets while he was talking to someone else.) A little weird.
-A girl in my calc class is the spotlight student in the exponent. That the third person this summer, and ever, for that matter, that I've known to be in it. (side note: Also, she revealed that she "hates Harry Potter" in the interview. I thought I liked her before. But I guess I was wrong.)
-I want to go flying again. I wake up and see Janel's picture every morning and I love it and wish I could do it this summer too. If I could only figure out how to win the lottery...
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
another dream
I had another cool dream.
In this one, I was dressed up pretty nicely, I don't remember exactly what, but something along the lines of my grey polo and khakis...or that white skirt that Kristen got me from california...or...well you get the idea.
So I walk into the Den (at Purdue) and the counter isn't at the front, it's at the back where the soda fountains are in real life. And behind the counter, on shelves are tons of quirky little things, like stuffed birds and woven cloth and shrunken heads and stuff. The woman behind the counter looks like me--sort of. She looks like me as in she has similar features: green eyes, brown hair, about the same height. But she has her hair in dreadlocks and is wearing a long printed skirt and a earth colored shirt with multiple hemp necklaces and bracelets and a nose ring. I point at a terra cotta vase that is about 2 feet tall behind her, and she gets it for me and sets it on the counter in front of me. "Is that all?" I point at something else, something smaller, she gets that too. Then I ask her for 'the stuff you can't point at' and she nods, bends down and pulls out a bag of weed. She stuffs it into the top of the water pot and rings me up. I pay and walk out of the store into the parking lot, pretty damn proud of myself. But then I realize that I'm no longer wearing my clothes, I'm wearing what that woman was wearing, and my hair is in dreadlocks. I've become that woman behind the counter.
I feel like this dream has some kind of deep meaning for my life that I won't probe into...I mean, the shallow meaning is obvious---but I wonder what Freud or Jung would say about it. It was awesome though.
In this one, I was dressed up pretty nicely, I don't remember exactly what, but something along the lines of my grey polo and khakis...or that white skirt that Kristen got me from california...or...well you get the idea.
So I walk into the Den (at Purdue) and the counter isn't at the front, it's at the back where the soda fountains are in real life. And behind the counter, on shelves are tons of quirky little things, like stuffed birds and woven cloth and shrunken heads and stuff. The woman behind the counter looks like me--sort of. She looks like me as in she has similar features: green eyes, brown hair, about the same height. But she has her hair in dreadlocks and is wearing a long printed skirt and a earth colored shirt with multiple hemp necklaces and bracelets and a nose ring. I point at a terra cotta vase that is about 2 feet tall behind her, and she gets it for me and sets it on the counter in front of me. "Is that all?" I point at something else, something smaller, she gets that too. Then I ask her for 'the stuff you can't point at' and she nods, bends down and pulls out a bag of weed. She stuffs it into the top of the water pot and rings me up. I pay and walk out of the store into the parking lot, pretty damn proud of myself. But then I realize that I'm no longer wearing my clothes, I'm wearing what that woman was wearing, and my hair is in dreadlocks. I've become that woman behind the counter.
I feel like this dream has some kind of deep meaning for my life that I won't probe into...I mean, the shallow meaning is obvious---but I wonder what Freud or Jung would say about it. It was awesome though.
Sunday, July 8, 2007
i was a camera until i went blind
Vegans, freegans, and hippies.
Oh what a life we live. Contemporary and careless, yet oh so meticulous.
Tigger's was awesome. I want to live like that. It was the single earthiest place I've ever been to. I want conventional trash to be my treasures and display my art all around me. I want the trees below me, above me, all around me. I want hundreds of vinyl records from garage sales and a flip book of my friend being a ninja with a shovel in black and white. I want to keep my spices in old jam jars that are labeled with their common name and scientific name. I want a roommate named Piper. I want little sheds in my front yard with corrugated tin roofs and windows going every which way. Give me every single tiny piece of your leftover life and I'll make it into mine. I'll make my life bigger and better and so much cooler than yours. So throw away your old doors and windows and bicycles. I'll take them and create more beauty than you've ever seen. Give me time and motivation and supplies and I'll be happy. Let me free myself within no bounds and have about 17 coffee mugs that don't match. I want a tiny little shelf to put my cowboy hats on so they can collect dust while I get ready to unsink my homemade boat (made out of plywood, pine, and mostly tar) from the bottom of the lake.
I am such a hippie at heart. I love it.
Oh what a life we live. Contemporary and careless, yet oh so meticulous.
Tigger's was awesome. I want to live like that. It was the single earthiest place I've ever been to. I want conventional trash to be my treasures and display my art all around me. I want the trees below me, above me, all around me. I want hundreds of vinyl records from garage sales and a flip book of my friend being a ninja with a shovel in black and white. I want to keep my spices in old jam jars that are labeled with their common name and scientific name. I want a roommate named Piper. I want little sheds in my front yard with corrugated tin roofs and windows going every which way. Give me every single tiny piece of your leftover life and I'll make it into mine. I'll make my life bigger and better and so much cooler than yours. So throw away your old doors and windows and bicycles. I'll take them and create more beauty than you've ever seen. Give me time and motivation and supplies and I'll be happy. Let me free myself within no bounds and have about 17 coffee mugs that don't match. I want a tiny little shelf to put my cowboy hats on so they can collect dust while I get ready to unsink my homemade boat (made out of plywood, pine, and mostly tar) from the bottom of the lake.
I am such a hippie at heart. I love it.
Friday, July 6, 2007
Oh Tyler
He's right again. Why is objectification considered such an evil and shallow thing? It's about beauty, which comes in all kinds of different forms. And beauty is one of the only truths left in the world. You can't even trust a man's eyes anymore. They lie. But there is something peaceful, yet stimulating and exciting, something serene about desiring someone or something only for their form and appearance. It may be savage or primitive, but it fills a void that modern life has left empty. All of the deadly sins are necessary for vibrancy in your life. The desire for extravagance, luxury, greed, envy and the pride we all keep secretly inside ourselves isn't something to be ashamed of. It doesn't make me a slut just because I want to sleep with some guy that's so hot he could cook an egg on his chest. It doesn't make him a jerk if he doesn't like my personality.
I don't know about you, but I believe in pure, unadulterated LUST at first sight.
I don't know about you, but I believe in pure, unadulterated LUST at first sight.
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